This has always been a special time of year for me. I look forward to the flowers, gifts, dinner, and all the celebrations of the day. Now, since my beloved has gone to be with the Lord, Valentine’s Day has changed.
Strangely, I am saddened as well as comforted. My heart goes back to last year’s Valentine’s day as my husband and I attended a funeral in Tampa. Our friend died suddenly, and the circle of family and friends was in deep pain. We had just been told of Richard’s illness, and were struggling with our own emotions as we tried to comfort our friends.
After the funeral we did our usual Valentine’s ritual. We went shopping for my gift and to dinner. Years ago, it was agreed between us that the best approach to gift selection for me was to allow me to pick it out and Richard to pay. This way everybody was happy. We went to a nice mall in Tampa. Richard sat at the counter while I tried on various rather pricey perfumes. When I made my selection, the sales associate asked if he was paying, and he cheerfully replied, “but of course!” He looked at the credit card slip and asked it that was all. I confirmed that it was. Later, at dinner, we talked about the sudden death of our friend and the beauty of her life. We did not speak of his own battle. Valentine’s Day was changing.
As with all holidays, I decorate my front door. This holiday it is filled with red hearts. I think it is rather pretty. The red hearts are so deep and rich in color. Have you ever wondered why red is the prevailing color for Valentine’s day? When I returned home on Sunday after participating in the communion service, the red hearts reminded me of how we celebrated the power of the blood.
I said earlier that I am comforted during my first Valentine’s Day without my husband. It is because I know that though Valentine’s Day is changing for me, God’s love will never change. He has assured me and the whole world that He loves us with an everlasting love. Many of us are faced with changing situations because of death, illness, disaster, and countless other reasons. But we do not lose heart. Our eternal love is sure.
For God so loved the world that we gave His only begotten son.
“We love because, He first loved us.” Happy and joyous Valentine’s Day!